Well i have a troll It comes out whenever i try to make new friends,try new things,try to express myself (in fact i can hear it muttering now)it comes out when i go to bed at night whenever i make a mistake,dare to care about something,when i am suffering from an anxiety attack or I,m in a group or when I,m alone and feel depressed...
WOW she really is nuts...OK hang on i will explain how it works and now what i do differently and how now i have learnt to shut the troll down and change an upset emotion to an amused at ease one :)
In my life living with PTSD Post traumatic stress disorder and BPD borderline personality disorder,there are many things a troll can have fun with and up till now I haven't stood much chance...but now I know I have a disorder or two I know whats going on.
meeting new people TROLL out "you dont belong"you are fat ugly,stupid,an idiot etc
going to bed at night..TROLL out.."remember when you,you cried you sooky bubba,How dare you care,YOU stupid idiot,you are so dumb you are a mistake ,nobody loves you ,you will never be enough.....
Ok,ok,ok shakes troll off instead of getting into long sniveling debates with this troll ...what I do now is a simply picture a box i pick up said troll launch into box lid on and if so much as a peep i hear outta box i take lid of and imagine a gag a pretty one with butterfly's and gross girly things on it and put lid back on ...the more annoying the troll the more humiliating things i will imagine ie make it sing Bruno mars..wear pig tails have on really girly perfume...hum positive songs make it wear silly hats etc
this is called diffusion and if that all fails to make me laugh then imagine troll saying all that stuff as daffy duck never fails to make me laugh and therefore i have effectively created troll diffusion spray think i will call myself dr Quazy today ... ;)think about how you could use and idea like this to help yourself.
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