so off into the big blue yonder i went with my lovely love of my life....
**** controlled what i did ..where i went,whom i spoke to as i found out he did not like it if i did things without checking it was OK first...
If say i babysat for friends of his without checking it was OK...apparently i was a selfish bitch who didn't care about him and only thought of myself (not that i just wanted to do something kind for one of his friends and that i thought he,d be happy about it )
****cheated on me with probably many girls i knew of two..
It was an intense relationship where i was constantly made to feel wrong..he physically choked me one night after drinking ,then completely denied doing it the next day and refused to speak of it,and me being a complete doormat let him get away with it.
He left me for my so called best friend in the end... he was having sex with her in the room next door to me while i was passed out dam near dead for alcohol poisoning..after drinking half a bottle of Malibu and southern comfort mixed with a joint (which i hadn't smoked before )..no one called me an ambulance i was out cold for two days and had tried climbing the walls there were FOUR people in that house and no one helped me.
He told his parents he had put my head threw a glass window..i was there it was the dog and it had been an accident.
He laughed his ass off at me when he saw me crying..
His parting words to me were..
"get an attitude""i did everything to you to see how far you would fall..."it was just a game...
and then he waltz off into the sunset without a care in the world with my ex best friend hand in hand.....
its been over 20yrs and its only this year i have remembered all of this...no wonder im so fucked up.
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